Final Hour

Is this the beginning or the end? Can hardly tell the difference/ plus I can't watch this bull--shit television/ I try to focus on what's real too much fraud/ too much nonsense, boy you need God. (chuurch) .. I'm not a preacher, but my reach is Olajuwon/ and it comes from the heart/ so If your scared to play your cards/ ask him for strength for the shit you can't control/ they like daaamn D where u goin with this/ I don't really know homie just know that I'm gone with it...

Don't bite my shit man... Reality Rap

Peace

The Return of the "G"

Gratitude, Gravy, Guns, Generosity, Gouda, Gin, Gentleman, Giddy, Grown, Grotesque, Grind, Grunt, Greasy, Groove, Gum, Galapagos, Google, Gza, Geeks, Geico, GreyHound, Gym, Gabble, Girls, Goofy, Gumbo, Gumby, Grief, Gypsey, Goody-Two Shoes,Galileo, Garbage, Genitals, Geezer, Gigolo, Giggles, Glazed Doughnuts, Gnocchi, Gravity, Gossip, Gringo, Geologist, Godfather, Graffiti, Greenback, Gynecologist, Gastroenterologists...

If u guessed any of these.... You were wrong... Don't be an outcast listen to some OutKast - Return Of The G-A-N-G-S-T-E-R... On The Aquemini Album ...Classic BTW ....So Find Yaself A SpottieOttieDopaliscious Angel ..When find her neck will be smelling sweeter than a plates of yams with extra syrup.... Light up the Chonky Fire and Skew It On The Bar B.. like old schools playas and new school fools .. n it doesn't matter where Rosa parks she can park where she wants.. Peace

Sleepless Nights

Questions toss and turn thru my mind. I'm only looking for peace and stability. When nightfalls the depth of some of my misfortune  start surfacing and I tend to drown myself. As difficult as my situation is right now, I can use all the help and support I can get. Is that too much to ask for? .... I have never been ungrateful. I try so hard to let my actions scream how I feel. I will go over and beyond my call of duty. Thruth is regardless of all this, I still asked to be appreciated for everything I do. If this is too much to ask for, then I have to move on. They say we only live once, so I want to take full advantage.  I carry my own whirlwind of emotions not to keep misery in my company. These sleepless night seem endless. Since my late teen years I have been a person of determination, with a go get it mentality. As a man I've never been at the mercy of anyone, let alone my family. Not the easiest of tasks.
     Some people do not realize how their actions and words may affect the people they love. It hurts to be blindsided by someone else's selfishness. I never could accept the my way or the highway mentality. Maybe tolerate it for a time being but what do you do when the feeling is unbearable? .... This road to success is a lot tougher than I thought it would be growing up. As we grow we lose that innocence for the world and everything in it. I never thought the events in my life would ever occur at the age of 13 or 14. My last 10 years has been enough for a lifetime. I'm only speaking how I feel. If I'm wrong then, what is this feeling inside of me. Always wanting to disconnect myself from all these negatives. Sometime this world is so negative. Where do you go then?
     So many questions, not enough answers. I try to keep my focus, but something is telling me to rethink where I'm standing. My heart isn't with me. Something I sacraficed when I left home. Almost 5 months in and still haven't gotten over the hump. Some of the time has felt like solitude. I have had a lot of time to think myself, to cry out my pain, and create peace with my insanity. My time to shine... Definitely.. so where am I going? UP.. because I've been down to long. I don't pray every night but I did tonight. Speaking to god has always been beneficial to me. Regardless of the outcome just being able to say what I feel. Rest easy world.... peace

Comrade behind enemy lines....

Am I already in the cemetery?
How is it I can still hear my heart? It's barely pumping, my veins are throbbing. Wondering when does my breathing stop... My line of life seems so distant yet it feels as if it has passed. I have had some unspectacular nights carried on by my own hard working hands, my own casket on my back. Only due to the weight I carry , is why I walk. I am too damn STRONG to give into the enemy. My attitude may only be changed or improved by myself. Your life can go in any direction that your attitude drives you in. So don't drive into a wall..... By Jack Skywalker aka Monterey Jack aka Luga Its difficult to see some of my brothers behind that wall. Knowing its even 10 times worst for them. Take care of your people if that's the situation, they need our help more than you know .. This is a P.S.A brought to you by none other than Arnez Kushem... Peace

Advice in the mirror...

Life is a opportunity Everyday there's a challenge, an obstacle, a chance to reach your goals. Everything and anything that gets in your path is only designed to make you stronger. You rise to the occasion as needed and move forward. Your love should never be lost by your own selfishness. Communication is the key to all relationships family, friends and in life.

Open The Doors

Lately my topics have been personal. Opening the doors to my mind for people who never met me or have known me for years. This side of me isn't always visible in this jungle that we all live in. Only when I am faced with this task, I bring the walls down. It helps me and my mind state. While I'm going thru changes, trying to right my wrongs. I write what I feel, there's alot of emotions behind these words. That's what I want my readers to know. It's more than just words for me, It's my life. When I use lyrics from other artist it's because these words make sense in a world of madness. If I repost something that I've read, It is because I feel it's worth passing on the information. Again, there's changes we are all dealing with in the world. Years of being lied to gets old. So I hope my honesty is worth something. We need to open the doors of communication in the community. We the people need to come together and this is worldwide. We are all human beings, no matter the language we speak. Honesty goes a long way. With all that's going on in politics, makes it difficult to relax. There will always come a day where you must fight for what you believe in. We must take those steps, we all need peace of mind. A positive outlook is good for the heart. Try and stay stress free and enjoy life... Peace

Family Matters

Growing up I didn't really think how important family was. I lived in New Jersey until the age of 10. Being back here brings back alot great moments in my life. Looking back I really enjoyed living here. My Father wanted to move to Miami. He wanted to be closer to his family. I think it was his parents mostly.  His bond with his brother never really seemed to be strong. There was a sense of separation but I was only a kid making this observation. At 26, I can understand that separation. Issues I won't speak on, only because it needs to be fixed. The emptiness becomes unbearable at times. Over the years growing up in Miami things had changed. Around November of 2000 my Father was diagnosed with lung cancer. It was hard to look him in the face, not knowing what was going to happen.I had to think how he felt and his feelings. My selfishness was getting in the way. I realize i had to be there for him no matter what. May 2001, his father passed. I can't remember the details there was alot going on in my head. Having to come to grips of saying goodbye to my father for a final time on November 6, 2001 wasn't easy at 16. Knowing he won't have to suffer anymore was the only relief. At his wake, I met people I've never seen before and I probably will never see them again. My grandmother's pain was deep. Losing her husband and her son in the same year. I couldn't imagine how she felt, because my thoughts were on the road ahead of me. My father told me to be strong for my mother. He wanted the best for me and my brother's. Now that's on us to make that happen. That's all I think about.  10 years later on this date family is so important to me. But the fact is that sometimes I don't know who my family is. We might share the same last name but there's no connection. My mother lost her job a month after his death. She didn't get any support from anybody but her Own Family. My Father's Wife and Mother to his 3 Children deserved better than that. You people don't know what we went thru. Your absence says it all. Those who have reached out,  thank you and I love you.  I try to forgive and forget but the pain is still relevant. Not a day goes by that I don't think about what he taught me. So I say this you might not have perfect parents or brothers and sisters but love them.We all need the love. My mother always said you pick your friends not family... Peace
10 years later still missing you Pop... Rest In Paradise

Don't You Get Caught, Masturbating On My BLOCK!!

True Story and One of the most recent...

So after helping a friend move, me and 2 of my amigos were riding on the turnpike. Smoking a blunt most likely (can't remember) listening to music , and as we start getting into our neighborhood. I see 2 Miami Dade patrol cars making u-turns. There was a third police car that stayed in the turning lane and as we passed he got behind us. Now one of my friends was riding with a few felonies and he started to get paranoid. With the cop up my ass i told em to relax, we're 3 stops signs away and i'm not fuckin this up. As we get to the corner of the street i live on, he decides to put on his lights and siren to pull me over. I simply drove to me house, and pulled in my drive way. I told everyone to stay in the car, as i walked directly towards the cop car with the intentions on busting his balls for pulling me over for no reason. He asked for my license and registration, I left my license in my car, since i was helping a friend move i was using my mother's truck. so after explaining this to the officer and reassuring him that i have a license. He asks " Are you riding alone? " and coincidentally my friends were stepping out of the truck. Pointing at them, explaining they were helping me with the move. Now again i ask him " What is the Problem?" "Why did you pull me over?" " Is there a problem?" With a very serious face he says "yes there is a problem." His tone caught me off guard. So i'm like "What is it?".. He says and i quote. " There was a truck like yours similar make and model, driving down 88st. Kendall DR. (miami, fl)  with a man masturbating inside."Now, my mind didn't process everything because i was so mad. I knew i was never on 88st. and thats all i was thinking. i didn't get the chance to laugh in his face. I replied to him only with this " Well listen man, i just came from Nw 7st. and i got on the turnpike to 152st. I think you can figure it out" He told me to have a nice day and drove off. Now if this was a joke on his part, he's a bad motherfucker. But i stopped as i walked to the house and started laughing so hard, i even made a song out of it.

Don't You Get Caught, Masturbating On My BLOCK, Masturbating On My BLOCK, Masturbating On My BLOCK, Block, BLOCK ,BLOCK, BLOCK...

It's perfect for some dub step, anyway, that will be an unforgettable experience. i will share with my kids. Who else gets pulled over for suspicion of masturbating behind the wheel?.... LMAO.....PEACE

The Infamous.....ShoeF*cker!! .. What ?!!?

I know it sounds confusing, but only because this actually happened I will share this story. Maybe i was about 18 or 19, not old enough to drink. But we bought a bottle in the club. They never asked me for i.d. as long as my money was right. There was 5 of us that night, some of us were a little more wasted than others. At the time, I don't think anyone knew how this night would end. It started as we were walking back to where we parked. It was a parking lot we found in a alley. Perfect place for some weird shit to go down. Not mentioning any names,  but this animal known as homicide felt he needed to get into this 4Runner that was parked by us. The sound of glass shattering, caught everyone off gaurd. He didn't let anyone in on his grand scheme. Blame it on the alcohol perhaps.... anyway after countless efforts of trying to take the radio out (just to hear some tunes) he settled for a large duffle bag. The adrenaline rush had us speeding out of the alleyway before someone found the mess we made. Finally when we get home to open the bags, only to find shoes. Kids shoes, woman's shoes,  and men's shoes. Making jokes of stealing..i mean borrowing an entire family's shoes was only the beginning. Inside the duffle bag was a collection of papers. Me being a natural Dick Tracy i started reading. The first couple pages was a list of where the shoes came from. Not department stores, but peoples homes, their closets, gym lockers, etc. Right then and there i knew something was wrong and at the same time my buddy found a vcr tape in the bag. (who still carries video cassette tapes, sadly we still had a vcr player at the time) Thinking there was gonna be a woman somewhere in this video we stood there and waited. Slowly but surely everything took a turn for the worst when the dude started inserting his penis in the shoe. 1 by 1 we walked out speechless, this wasn't shoes that we took! This was some guys Pussy!! We sat quietly, staring at the walls. Trying to block these images out of our mind. Homicide destroyed the tape with one swift crack over the knee. I am quite the jordan collector, so i started making threats... " If I catch anyone trying to fuck my J's, I'm gonna kick your ass" lol... It became  an unforgettable joke. The man in the video probably has never felt worst than that night. Coming back to his car and having his ladies kidnapped. lmao There is some sick people in this world. Again this entire story is true, i would not make this up. There are more that i will start writing soon. i hope you enjoyed the craziness....Peace

Don't Lie To Me....

 Everyone has a story to tell. Before you even ask for it, there just itching to get it out. They want us to believe them to so frickin bad. We all know that one guy/girl that has a better story than something that actually happen to you. I try to stay away from these Charles Dickens. The lack of truth in the world is crippling. I don't need anymore poison from anywhere else. The only thruth is that none of us know what is really going on behind closed doors. Like what type of deals are made or the parties involved. Yes i'm talking politics, as much as i hate to do it. I'm just tired of the bullshit that the news and media feeds us. Not everything is what it seems. In this day and age that has became clear. Growing up I never thought about it. as children we don't worry about what's going on the world. We just want to have fun, but what about the kids that are starving in other countries. Only because this "group of the higher up" have destroyed their economy using our country as the face of it all. This has been going on way before my generation. We as a world are feeling the affects of abuse. The day a human being is more important in this world then money will be the beginning of a new world. sadly that day will never come. i hope i'm wrong, i hope we can all find peace. killing each other does nothing but help control population. we need a world with balance and right now that doesn't exist. Your either rich or poor, there is no in between. There is no middle class, that's just something they made up to make us feel better. We have to look to the future and start making serious decisions. The future of our children depend on it. If you have kids, you should being thinking about them right now. Our parents did what they could to get us in the position we're in. Now it's our turn... all those years in school they told us we are the future of america. This is what they were talking about. The decisions we make as a whole, means a lot at this point. To them we're just consumers, not humans just consumers. Would you buy something knowing there is innocent people dying over the goods. Like the blood diamonds Kanye West raps about. How long were conflict diamonds being sold until this information came to light? The lies, cover ups, betrayal, treason, assassinations, and the wars where truth was swept under the rug to be forgotten. How can we live in such a place and not rebel?....Just my Thoughts Peace

Words From 50cent..#Honesty

How fucked up that we have evidence that the big Banks have been corrupt, yet our governments aren't punishing those that have stolen from the pension funds.

Our Politicians are puppets for whoever pays them into office. That's how fucked our system is. Their broken promises for change cant happen especially when the system is corrupt

And children who need a meal go without because our politicians won't stop thinking of themselves long enough or how to win the next election, too look around them and see how bad it is.

You aren't helping Mr politician, things are getting worse here in the US, in Europe, Africa everywhere!

Im fuckn angry that Children are dying everyday.

There's hard working people out there who do give a shit.

Problem is those with the power – government and big business, want this system to keep going. Its suits them

I don't want to do business with these fuckers anymore. Do you?

if a company isn't giving back, stop buying from them. Buy a pair of shoes from TOMS (who give another pair to someone in need), look for companies that aren't paying lip service to community / charity

we are more powerful than the big business and politicians realize......we have the power to stop buying their products, banking with them.

your dollar, that you worked hard for, does have power.

together we can say – WAKE UP A-HOLES! The game is over.

- want to shout out to Occupy Wall Street groups around the world. You are waking up the world, including me. Please keep up the peaceful protest, you are making a difference

Love by john lennon

Love is Real, Real is love
Love is Feeling, Feeling Love
Love is Wanting, To be Loved
Love is Touch, Touch is Love
Love is Reaching, Reaching love
Love is Asking, To be Loved
Love is You, You and Me
Love is Knowing, We can't Be
Love is Free, Free is Love
Love is Living, Living Love
Love is Needing, To Be Loved



THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT & LOVE

Knowledge Is Still Power....

With everything going on in the world. We have to keep our eyes open to read all the information out there. Listen to what people have to say, information is key. Not everything is relevant we have to read in between the lines sometimes. This Occupy Movement has opened a door that was already cracked open. The way a human being means nothing to the leaders of this world. Not this country, This World...Some of us have to broaden our horizons, our thought process is to narrow at times. If you choose to be blind I'm not mad at you. The truth is it affects us all, from our elders to the children. This last month I wrote about a lot of personal issues and honest opinions that I have. Every day I'm still learning and reading as much as i can. Keep my mind going, staying focus. I have a lot going on in my life, mainly helping family out. I always thought I had my life on track but my vision wasn't clear. I Guess I Had My SunGlasses On!! LOL
Anyway, OCCUPY THE STREETS IS STILL THE MESSAGE HERE!!! Knowledge is Power, Read the Information out there, Find out what there fighting for. They're fighting for our rights too!! PEACE

ALL ALONE

     The fear of commitment..the fear of connecting to the person and losing them. There's an emptiness, a void that maybe will never be filled. I don't open these doors for just anyone. You will only see a glimpse. The pain is bigger than I can write. I sit quietly in thought. While you sleep, I'm tossing and turning. My brain won't let me sleep. All alone in my own.  It's hard for me to let someone in. Explaining everything, it always feels like the first time. All my losses and how they affect me. I carry the pain on my sleeve. My emotions may seem as a kind of weakness, but the weakness is my control over them .
       
       Regret is such a terrible feeling.

               Living with these regrets while they eat up your insides. The ulcers of emotions. What do you feed this monster?  Doubt and going thru the what ifs in life just seems to weigh me down. I just want to live a "normal" life.  You see "normal" hasn't been in my vocabulary for last 10 years. So, How do I go about having a "normal" relationship ? ...Do I look for a "normal" girl? .....I don't think I know what anything is anymore. I only know me and what I'm capable of. I learn something new about myself everyday and I try to grow.
   
                     My dreams is all I have, and I don't sleep much. Sometimes it's hard for me to believe in myself. I don't feel I've accomplished enough. Even after everything I've overcome. I'm not satisfied. Maybe this is that void I feel. Always needing the support from family,friends and most of all... from You..whoever you are.

"All along, I guess I'm meant to be Alone"- Kid Cudi
                                                       Peace

Stop the Violence

Run Away

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Throw Away Your Television...

Take the Noose off your Ambition - Anthony Kiedis

              Listening to this song by The Red Hot Chili Peppers makes perfect sense. (Except for Sunday n sometimes Thursday...NFL...and Tuesday S.O.A.) So much garbage on T.V.  Don't get me wrong there's great shows. All I ask is "How many times do we need to hear the same story?" Hate is a strong word so I very, really, super duper can't stand reality shows. If in the credits is says "written by blah blah" then its not reality. Leave it up to real actors to play out roles on my favorite shows. If it's not something educational such as First 48, Intervention, or just something that is REAL! I dont want to watch. Why do i care about the "Housewives of any city"? We decide to watch someone else is life to make us feel better. Really?? When do we live our lives?... Maybe I'm wrong, Supply and Demand says I am. We the people keep buying into this shit. While rich get richer the poor just watching. Make sure you got enough money for that cable bill. Your credit cards don' swipe, and it's Mcdonald's dollar menu dinner. Just in time for Basketball Wives.....huh? We take other human beings with money too serious. It's like asking Jay-Z what he thinks about the war in iraq. He raps, promotes, and sold dope at some point. He never joined the military. (Soldiers n Veterans = heroes) What would he know? Other than what he might see and hear.... Next this country dude that does the Monday Night Football intro..(Couldn't remember his name(non important) had to look it up Hank Williams Jr) He compared Obama to Hitler on Fox News (of all places). Who the fuck cares? The only time i see this guy is on monday night and he singing. That's his job, not a news correspondent, not a politician. But guess what that shit had him trending on twitter all day. Everyone had something to say about it good, bad, and ugly didn't matter. Why even give it a second of your time?

            John Lennon once said in a interview "The Beatles are bigger than Jesus right now." The whole thing was blown out of proportion and they were receiving death threats from Kack Kack Kack (KACK SUCKAS) I hate racism BTW... Anyway, i'm just saying what i feel. When i see Rihanna, performing Rude Boy @ the Kids Choice Awards(2010) Then see Kesha on disney ( same girl talking about a bottle of jack in her debut single.) About 2 weeks ago i hear her song on the radio talking about menage trois and getting wasted. I only wonder what does this do for the kids. What is it that we're selling them? T.V. business is serious business, Hollywood is serious business ask Dave Chappelle.  It's always up to parents to handle what their kids are doing with their time. Nothing should be more important than the future of our youth. Watch the news, it repeats itself, It always has, always will. Just like the rest of the b.s. If you want to experience something new, you have to do it yourself. "THROW AWAY YOUR TELEVISION TIME TO MAKE THIS CLEAN DECISION......IT'S A REPEAT, OF A STORY TOLD.....AND IT'S GETTING OLD" - Red Hot Chili Peppers on the By The Way Album

Peace

New Music... More Coming Soon....

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Smoke 1 With Me..

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Imagine All The People

Try To LOVE & EVOLve....

Every relationship you should learn something about yourself. Everyday should be a new lesson in life. Sometimes we can't imagine that the people we meet will someday play a role in our lives. a friendship, a girlfriend/boyfriend it doesn't matter. We evolve when we meet someone that can inspire us to do more. Our pride gets in the way of admitting this and i've been guilty as charged. ( i was granted early release for good behavior.) It has always been easier for me to write out how i feel instead of speaking.

"Why are we here? Surely not to live in pain and fear" - John Lennon

Over the years i've learned to tell the people i love and care about what they need to hear. Life is too short. We cant be scared of how that person might react. If you really care, if you really love them, if you really want to help. just be honest.

" Honesty is such a lonely word, Everyone is so untrue. honesty is hardly ever heard and mostly what i need from you." Billy Joel

Food for thought.. serve them an intelligent dish. If you have the knowledge and wisdom then share it. If you are the one at the dinner table. eat up, i hope you came with an appetite and don't worry about about the bill. you can pay with your attention it's only a reality check. Maybe you don't realize that you can learn the recipe, and one day you can be the cook. What i've learned from people i can never live without. My friends, family, enemies, co-workers, and even the homeless (yes the homeless) I've crossed paths with all walk of life and i've always listened. Always take what a person has to say into consideration. Take from it what you might feel is relevant. So many people lay out their smoke and mirrors. We cant reflect on that image because whatever we generate will be distorted truth. Lately i've been writing all i have to offer. Yes, they are just my opinions, i also have a heart that pumps blood and brain that functions properly at times... In my 26 years i carry experiences not everyone my age or older than me has had to chance to live thru and vice versa. I have not stopped learning and i wont stop sharing.

"people asking questions, lost in confusion. Well i tell them there's no problems, only solutions" - John Lennon

this quote is so true there is always a solution. This is why i listen to the music that came before us. musicians weren't scared to be honest. I take pride in what i do and when i have people tell me that my words have touched them. the feeling is one of love and hope for my future. Never did i imagine i was capable of  completing such a task. From now on if the door opens i'm walking thru it. if you have the chance, i hope you make the choice to change for the better. Let love help you evolve. we must learn to grow as human beings.
Thanks for the support, we all need it. Peace

Just a minor thing

                            So I'm awaken by an unknown number. i hate those calls, especially on the nights I'm trying to go to bed early. (3 hours of sleep last night and 4 hours the night before. ) of course the caller doesn't know this, but can you at least not block the call. you never who's calling when its unknown, we always think "uh oh stalker." (i've had a stalker before, its nothing to be proud of.) what if?, just what if its an emergency? i would feel like shit if someone called me because they needed help and i didn't answer because i make an assumption. when i answer the phone with a mumble and then a hello and no response your just listening. it's kind of sad that you have the time on your hands or maybe not, because you didn't call me back. maybe since i posted the number you figured i was lying and you just wanted to see what's up. well  now you know...YAY!!! thank you anyway.... i forgot to brush my teeth...and if you wondering who's billy dee coolidge?? he is who you the people.. created. It feels good to be positive Peace in the middle east.. 

State Of Mind...RELOCATING

            
         My life hasn't always been full of positives. In my darkest hour, I always had someone to brighten my day. Thank God for these people. A couple close calls has sent my state of mind in some what of a frenzy. There has to be more to life then just nickels and dimes, everybody has there two cents. I just want to be successful, i can do without the fame. i don't do anything for the fame but life becomes a popularity contest. I get it, but you gotta remember we're all human being capable of something positive.

 " i know what i'm needing, i dont wanna waste more time..I'm in a N.Y. State of mind. " Billy Joel

Since i've left all my reasons behind i've been feeling nothing but positivity. Everyone reading, thank you for reading and Please leave your comments, or Email Me arnezkushem@yahoo.com, or text me @my google voice # (904)4KU-SHEM (458-7436)   its only more inspiration for me to hear it from you....   



           

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And Then There Was The Birth 
Of Billy Dee COOLidge
Keep It Cool...Ice Cold

Venus.. It Must Be Beautiful There

The work of art that we can never pass up.....Of course "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder." I don't know who came up with the phrase but the words are perpetual. You have to use another set of eyes to appreciate the painting or the sculpture. The mind behind the piece you see before you can explain so much. The beauty we all look for is deeper than just what you see on the canvas. In reality the artwork satisfies all of our senses. As men we sometimes ruin a perfect Leonardo Da Vinci painting. Mona Lisa wasn't a Kim Kardashian but if you look at the painting long enough you can see true, genuine beauty. Now no one is perfect and though Hollywood sets this perception on what's beautiful and what's not. These are only humans like us with tons of pressure on their shoulders just to stay relevant. Money can't buy love but it can buy physical beauty. Who wants someone that is fake? (I know your drooling over them silicone titties at Tootsie's Cabaret homie but she just wants your money and I'm sure she got plenty of issues to go with those implants.) A woman should never cut into their bodies. You will only tarnish what god has created. A man is gonna love you whether you have a A cup or DD's when he see's your true-self and that takes us into the next segment.

                                                                    ::Inner Beauty::

 I like to say " God doesn't like ugly." Not talking about the physical but how that person carries themselves. Those females that treat themselves like shit , Let other people treat em like shit, usually become shit. It will probably be too late by the time they realize (Enough with the negative)... Behind every strong man is a strong woman. My mother taught me this first hand. When my father passed, she lost her job a month later. This sparked a whole new beginning for her, she went back to school while  cleaning houses for an income. I don't think she has looked back ever since. She finished nursing school and it's no more cleaning houses anymore. When life threw her a curve ball she hit a home run.  Now with that being said...

                          "Since We All came from a woman, Got our name from a woman, and our game from a woman...I wonder Why We Take from our woman ? Why We Rape our Woman ? Do We Hate our Woman?" (Keep Ya Head Up - 2pac )

I think God decided for woman to carry the babies because he wanted us as men to appreciate them for all they have to offer. The life they bring into our worlds.  I dont have any children but as a man i can sense the fulfillment of having a piece of you. Breathing, growing, and living their lives right before your eyes.
                                           " Life is what happens when your busy making other plans" (John Lennon)

Man and Woman, We forget what's important in this one life we have. A man needs a woman by his side, the balance she creates for us to walk the tight rope. Forever seems like a long time but love lasts forever. It wasn't love if the feeling faded. It never dies, its in a picture, a letter, a song, and in our hearts. "Treat others the way you want to be treated" Male or Female it doesn't matter. If you read this and your hating, I don't care..I'm not writing it for you. This is dedicated to all the beautiful woman i have ever crossed paths with and those who i haven't. Stay true to yourself and Always Love Yourself. The rest will fall into place. If you are lost I hope you find your path in life, I hope i can inspire that much.... If your still hating, keep on hating there will always be more here for you to hate on....Peace

MIDAS TOUCH

I was 19 years old. It was May 22, 2004. Sitting at the couch watching t.v.  with this chick. She ask me to call her cousin who happens to be a friend of mine.... This phone call changed my life forever. I paced back and forth waiting a response. Only hearing what the streets were talking. That was so like Midas. He always told me "The streets are talking homie and I'm listening." He was a quiet dude but when he spoke he was humble and genuine. As an artist and a writer I always had my doubts. and I remember when i was 16 I moved up to Jersey and I had a chance to talk to him on the phone. He asked if i've been writing and i told em yeah listen to this verse. When I finished he didnt quite give me the response I was hopin for. Then one day 6 months later in miami there's a group of us talking about music and he's like "yo D spit that crack you had let me hear over the phone." Kinda caught me off gaurd that he even remembered my first line. He always be here in spirit and he will forever be missed. The Song Has Ended But The Melody Lives Forever 730 For LIFE. For some people 730 is only an expression for crazy or gang affiliation. We were never a gang, We were just growing up in this crazy world. We had sense of family when we got together for a house party or bbq. We would help Midas set up the turn tables and speakers. He's pop open a guinness and start spinnin records. He always had a reggae mix that he can play long enough to go light one up. At a young age he always had a vision for success. Success that we will all be able to share. That is my main goal in this life and maybe the next one. 730 La Familia RIP Midas Touch, Peace

Liquid Cocaine/ Liquid Heroin... There's A BIG DIFFERENCE

Ok, so here's how it goes.. 1 part Jager, 1 part Rumpleminze, 1 part Goldschlager. This is a Liquid Cocaine (L.C. for short)  Let me remind you Rumpleminze is 100proof. Now Liquid Heroin (L.H. for short) is the same exact concoction ( that word is for Mr Ki Dub) but you add 151 on top of that. I can handle my liquor but 2 of those puts me in my spot. I dont need anything else to drink but water after back to back shots of L.H. So one night Mr. Ki Dub (im gonna call him Mr because he deserves it) Myself, O-Dogg, and I cant remember anyone else. That alone should explain the intensity of the night. We were  chilling, getting wasted from place to place. Our last stop was a strip club, well i think we only went to strip clubs that night (LOL) As soon as we walk in the door O is ordering a round of L.H's. Now Mr. Ki Dub's favorite drink are L.C's and at the time he was drinking like a fish since he was 13. He has yeeeears under his belt!! i wouldnt expect him to fail me as a my wingman. That night he proved me wrong...15 minutes after the first round, another round was ordered. 15 minutes later Mr. Ki Dub is tugging on some dudes shirt, screaming gibberish at the top of his lungs. After I apologize to the man, and explain to him that this half irish half italian nut bar has had to much to drink. told em it wont happen again yada yada. so after i scold Mr. Ki Dub with a fierce " Tighten The Fuck UP!!" Only to wait 10 more minutes until he's fuckin with buddy again. At that point the dude was cool and he didnt take it personal. He just laughed as I walked Mr. Ki Dub to the door. I didnt want to fuck up my connections at the club. I got drinks for the low, The girls didn't ask me for a tips, and i was cool with all the bouncers. So the ride home was a mix of my disappointment and his gibberish. i decided to stop and get some denny's and try to help my dear friend sober up some. only to find a group of piggies enjoyin their coffee n pancakes. I wasnt about to bring Mr. Ki Dub inside, so i tell him to wait in the car. Now this is where i made my one and only mistake. i left the keys in the ignition. it didnt occur to me at the time but when i stepped outside with 2 bags of food. To find my car missing from the parking lot with half the precint inside behind me. i was furious. I dont even think that is the word to use for this night. I wanted to kill him and take em to the everglades so the gators could have a drunken feast. When he answers the phone he has the audacity to ask me "Where are you?" This man thought I left him. He fell asleep, woke up in the passenger side and came to the conclusion that he was by himself. I think God put him in my life to test my patience.  When I see him, i have to ask him " how did i do?" At the beginning I wrote Mr. Ki Dub deserves the Mr. I say that because he's trying to live a life of sobriety. I support that 100%. To see a childhood friend destroying himself kills me. No matter the drug. (Yes alcohol is a drug, they just figured out how to tax it.) i know there's people out there that could relate. Sometimes we have to wait for them to hit rock bottom before we can help them pick themselves up. So Mr. Ki Dub we had some goodtimes and we will continue. I SALUTE YOU!!! STAY STRONG MY BROTHER I GOT YOUR FUCKING BACK!!!!!  Anybody on my side of the fence... BE THERE FOR YOUR FOLKS.. THEY NEED US!!!! ALSO TO ALL MY PEOPLES READING THIS.... I LOVE YOU GUYS THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT!!!! 730 LA FAMILIA

GOD'S GIFT...THE BIGGER PICTURE

No matter what I've been thru I've never tried to return his gift. That would be rude and I would be considered ungrateful. There people that have nothing but the gift of life and they are so happy with it. Why does the thought even cross our mind? Suicide really... that's the solution when times get hard. If u have something you can't live with. Ask God to take your pain and offer him your time. We were all put here for a reason. I'm sure he didn't put us here to kill ourselves. In my opinion those that have taken their  own life are considered failures in his eyes. I'm not some one who is very religious. I don't believe in church. But there is a God, a higher power. This where I lay my trust. Too many coincidences in my life, for him not to be real. Believing is the hardest part. Sometimes our minds get the best of us. Doubt, our lack of self esteem, the negativity, the idea in our heads that we're not perfect because TV says so. Companies that shoot commercials selling there products by making you feel like less of a person. Everyone that wakes up every morning should feel special. Love thyself, n if someone doesn't appreciate you then move on. Don't hate someone for not respecting or loving you. At the end of the day it is their loss. Stay above the water. Drowning should never be an option. I find inspiration everyday, without it I would be dead. Love the time you have and the people you spend that time with. If you can't be happy with that person.. just move on.
ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME -2PAC ..I will wait for my time to come for him to do just that
Dedicated to you

Obstacles

Once upon a time..there was a man who went out of his way for my family. With no blood relation to us. It was all love. The love he had for my grandmother.  Growing up there was no step in front of grandfather. We knew exactly who he was. Smart, genuine,  and caring. When I was 16 years old, he sent me a letter. Nothing that he wrote personally just something he felt that I needed to read. It was about obstacles and how they're put in front of us to get over them. When we are faced with these decisions in our lives. We may not realize but this is what makes you who you are or who you want to become. At the time i received this my father was diagnosed with cancer and he later passed months after the letter.... A friend once said "God will never put you thru something you can't handle." After every friend that has passed or family member whose time was up. I've learned to accept whatever fate has in store. But I will never stop fighting. Obstacles will always fail to destroy who I am. Every challenge and how I get thru it can only define me.The insanity began before my birth. I'm learning to live with it. For all those struggling...being miserable will only destroy your spirit we have been blessed with. Change your outlook and think positive . Enjoy your life none of us know where our chapters end. Peace R.I.P Samuel Potash n my father Jose Luis Nuñez

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Misrepresentation..

Do you think you can figure someone out on twitter? 140 characters is never enough for me. I always have more to say.What does that say about me? I'm not a role model and I dont try to be one. If the one who is looking up to me is following in my foot steps I can only say one thing. Turn around and find your own path because this one is still under construction.  You never want to be like the next man. Always be yourself....Honesty is always the best policy.  The human mind will always be more than 140 characters and those who live in that world believing all they read. I will pray for you. In my life I've never seen so many fools. Thanks to twitter making that all possible. Connecting us even though so many are still so disconnected. If i say something i mean it... From " Have a nice day! " to " Go fuck yourself! " I mean every syllable.. I promise. I always try to remember its not what you say its how you say it. At the end of the day I will keep being myself and speak how i feel. Not what you want to hear but sometimes the truth hurts. Peace Smoke 1

Sons of Anarchy

When I first saw the show my boy j was watching it n I didn't really grasp the concept. Since I've moved to Jersey I've had so much time to myself. I watched the first 3 seasons in about 2 weeks (addicted). Amazing storyline. Not only is it entertainment but it has caused me to look at my own life. Knowing your doing the wrong thing n u just don't know how to get out of it. The feelin of once u fall into deep you are buried alive. It drags you down. The weight of failure. Those who aren't scared of the consequences are only fools. My father didn't have the best education (dropping out @ 15) but he would never be mistaken for a fool. I learn everyday what it is to be a man. Admiting your mistakes n growing from them. I walked away from people I love the most to set myself on the right path. Some never take that chance ...Others never make it that long. May the lord be my Shepard ...peace for a son of anarchy

Wayne vs Jay-z

Very easy to look at their body of work n judge this battle but it's not that easy. Now I grew up to jay-z. I listened to him religiously. You couldn't tell me anything about Jay's music that I didn't know. He deserves what he has because he worked hard for it. Ok. Now lil Wayne started off the opposite with me. I was more of a Juvenile n B.G. fan. When it came to the hotboyz. Wayne dropped tha block iz hot. Even tho I wasn't feeling him, He had an instant influence on people in the street. I think maybe he was 16... anyway years went by and his wordplay started to change. He started getting better. There's artist that make claims there the reason for it. Good for U. As artist if your not inspired by other musicians n artist then why the fuck did u start making music?! (Whole other story) Long story short he's now on top of his game. When he made claims to be best rapper alive on "The Carter " I cringed. Jay-z just retired.  It was difficult but that album grew on me. "Carter II " classic! Hands down. Ok back to Jay-z before he retired ( I forget the magazine) he's says he always looked up to Michael Jordan but when Jordan came back to play for Washington Wizards he felt as if it was mistake. He should of stayed retired he says.... now who does that sound like. Hmm. He then goes on to say when he retires (jigga) he is going to make music more for like Talib kweli... I'm waiting but I won't hold my breath. Superman dies.. As a true fan so did Jay-Z. You will always be an inspiration to the world n your music will live on forever. Just let go of the fame n enjoy the rest of your life. Perfect song for jigga "John Lennon - Watching the Wheels".. Jigga had his first album drop when he was 27 years old.. Weezy 16.. think about that To be continued ..  Peace

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Where did we go wrong???

I feel like we let down the older generations. Even though the times have changed. It seems as those before had way more cojones(balls) for what they believed in. We seem to accept everything for what it is. If not we say fuck it, n we rebel, but we never make a difference. No peace, no love, no compassion. We're too worried about bullshit. I am guilty too.. but if you can't see that someone had the intentions to make us this way.Thru what we watch n read then your blind. Did u know our money is created from debt? See the way money has us by the the throat.its called Economic slavery.If your not getting money you will be replaced as a friend, boyfriend, husband .. people don't want to be around broke motherfuckers. Sad but true... n they say love don't cost a thing. They say the end is near... ok then I'm waiting. I have to see how stupid everyone is going to react. #GodFirst Peace

Head up Eyes open....Even when your stoned

In order to survive , you must adapt to your surroundings. Learn your enviroment and stick to what you know. You have to be smart. Take the wrong left and nothing will ever be right again. I'm talking about the concrete jungle. If your a square then learn your role. Not everyone is built for the same task. You might think its cool but its not. Most people do this shit because they have to or maybe that's all they know. If you have an option, then be smart. Knowledge is very important. Its stronger than you might think. Keep your head up, eyes open and always a positive outlook on life. Full steam ahead.....don't let no one kill your drive or discourage you with their negativity. Haters get no love...peace smoke1

Kushed out on a Rollercoaster

Its crazy the directions life takes you. With no telling when n where you might come to realization that maybe your meant to be where your standing. Chasing a dream is never what it seems. Why stop now? Maybe I took a turn for the best. I've received compliments for my courage...the courage of leaving everything behind. Is this the rollercoaster to success? Only one way to find out...peace light one

Up late Smoke great

When I can't sleep I dedicate my time to getting stoned until my brain turns off. I highly doubt I'm the only one. Its not insomnia its thought process overload. It never fails me. 1hr goes by then 2..Fml..I'm still here tossing n turning. Tylenol pm..negative..maybe if I had some Cheese(maryjane strain) head down body down sleepy buzz. That's wtf I need in my life. 

High Tendencies

Every morning I roll a joint and stretch out preparing myself for another wonderful day. When the munchies kick in I go for a bowl of cereal and I put on some beats. Let my mind go... searching for the words to describe my everyday, my past and my future.