Questions toss and turn thru my mind. I'm only looking for peace and stability. When nightfalls the depth of some of my misfortune start surfacing and I tend to drown myself. As difficult as my situation is right now, I can use all the help and support I can get. Is that too much to ask for? .... I have never been ungrateful. I try so hard to let my actions scream how I feel. I will go over and beyond my call of duty. Thruth is regardless of all this, I still asked to be appreciated for everything I do. If this is too much to ask for, then I have to move on. They say we only live once, so I want to take full advantage. I carry my own whirlwind of emotions not to keep misery in my company. These sleepless night seem endless. Since my late teen years I have been a person of determination, with a go get it mentality. As a man I've never been at the mercy of anyone, let alone my family. Not the easiest of tasks.
Some people do not realize how their actions and words may affect the people they love. It hurts to be blindsided by someone else's selfishness. I never could accept the my way or the highway mentality. Maybe tolerate it for a time being but what do you do when the feeling is unbearable? .... This road to success is a lot tougher than I thought it would be growing up. As we grow we lose that innocence for the world and everything in it. I never thought the events in my life would ever occur at the age of 13 or 14. My last 10 years has been enough for a lifetime. I'm only speaking how I feel. If I'm wrong then, what is this feeling inside of me. Always wanting to disconnect myself from all these negatives. Sometime this world is so negative. Where do you go then?
So many questions, not enough answers. I try to keep my focus, but something is telling me to rethink where I'm standing. My heart isn't with me. Something I sacraficed when I left home. Almost 5 months in and still haven't gotten over the hump. Some of the time has felt like solitude. I have had a lot of time to think myself, to cry out my pain, and create peace with my insanity. My time to shine... Definitely.. so where am I going? UP.. because I've been down to long. I don't pray every night but I did tonight. Speaking to god has always been beneficial to me. Regardless of the outcome just being able to say what I feel. Rest easy world.... peace
Some people do not realize how their actions and words may affect the people they love. It hurts to be blindsided by someone else's selfishness. I never could accept the my way or the highway mentality. Maybe tolerate it for a time being but what do you do when the feeling is unbearable? .... This road to success is a lot tougher than I thought it would be growing up. As we grow we lose that innocence for the world and everything in it. I never thought the events in my life would ever occur at the age of 13 or 14. My last 10 years has been enough for a lifetime. I'm only speaking how I feel. If I'm wrong then, what is this feeling inside of me. Always wanting to disconnect myself from all these negatives. Sometime this world is so negative. Where do you go then?
So many questions, not enough answers. I try to keep my focus, but something is telling me to rethink where I'm standing. My heart isn't with me. Something I sacraficed when I left home. Almost 5 months in and still haven't gotten over the hump. Some of the time has felt like solitude. I have had a lot of time to think myself, to cry out my pain, and create peace with my insanity. My time to shine... Definitely.. so where am I going? UP.. because I've been down to long. I don't pray every night but I did tonight. Speaking to god has always been beneficial to me. Regardless of the outcome just being able to say what I feel. Rest easy world.... peace
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